Man I am not happy today.
My training this week has sucked big time. I've missed 2 days straight. I drank wine on Sunday night. I am pre menstrual. And I stupidly checked the scales this morning. Almost like a intentional sabotage to create or justify a bad mood. I have lost only .5kg. That is not acceptable. Tomorrow's weigh in will be horrible. I am going to have to work hard to keep my focus.
My hunger has subsided somewhat, but has been replaced by some ridiculous desire for sweet foods. It is a constant battle. I wont give in but I am tired and cant be bothered with the struggle.
I go to bed early, hiding from past habits. As a result, I don't feel like I have seen my husband in days. I know I need to push though this stage. I know this.
Monday, 27 May 2013
Tuesday, 21 May 2013
week 2 weigh in
Well...Here's to organisation in regard to red flags.
1.3kg down this week and I was expecting the worst due to my night of pre planned partying.
Hangover Sunday was actually more difficult as I craved some salty goodness usually connected to a hangover, but resisted.
I am so so happy with this result. Totally unexpected. In saying that, I trained hard and ate perfectly all week.
It feels good to be heading in the right direction.
I love the food. I love to cook. Many of my tweets are food shots. Annoying to some, I know, but I love the colours in the 12wbt menu. so fresh and so clean.
Now to make sure my happiness relating to my weigh in does not hamper me from pushing hard this week. I must not ease off the pedal but keep pushing forward.
Wishing my friends all the best during these tough times.
It was wonderful to see everyone happy. xxx
1.3kg down this week and I was expecting the worst due to my night of pre planned partying.
Hangover Sunday was actually more difficult as I craved some salty goodness usually connected to a hangover, but resisted.
I am so so happy with this result. Totally unexpected. In saying that, I trained hard and ate perfectly all week.
It feels good to be heading in the right direction.
I love the food. I love to cook. Many of my tweets are food shots. Annoying to some, I know, but I love the colours in the 12wbt menu. so fresh and so clean.
Now to make sure my happiness relating to my weigh in does not hamper me from pushing hard this week. I must not ease off the pedal but keep pushing forward.
Wishing my friends all the best during these tough times.
It was wonderful to see everyone happy. xxx
Sunday, 19 May 2013
Things to remember in life (Dalai Lama).
Follow the 3 R's........Respect for self...Respect for others...Responsibility for all your actions.
Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.
Open your arms to change but don't let go of your values.
Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risks.
When you lose, don't lose the lesson.
Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon
Be kind to the Earth.
Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.
Open your arms to change but don't let go of your values.
Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risks.
When you lose, don't lose the lesson.
Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon
Be kind to the Earth.
Week One Complete
Well, Week 1 is complete and all is going reasonably well.
I am very nervous though, regarding week 2 weigh in.
I had a red flag night on Saturday and was well prepared. It was an event that was close to my heart (illness of a friend) and was a non negotiable re drinking. By my choice, of course. I am aware of the outcome of drinking and kept it reasonable.
I ate at 4pm b4 I left home to ensure no party nibble crossed my lips, and they did not, eventhough I helped with the cooking.
So, the long and short of it is...I hope I still lose a little weight on Wednesday but will be upset if I have gained.
My walk/run today went well and I have started the weekly challenge of completing 500 push ups (50 down).
I feel well and happy, sleeping a little restless. but that often happens to me with change.
I enjoy looking ahead 4 weeks to see where I am at. That keeps me going.
xxx
I am very nervous though, regarding week 2 weigh in.
I had a red flag night on Saturday and was well prepared. It was an event that was close to my heart (illness of a friend) and was a non negotiable re drinking. By my choice, of course. I am aware of the outcome of drinking and kept it reasonable.
I ate at 4pm b4 I left home to ensure no party nibble crossed my lips, and they did not, eventhough I helped with the cooking.
So, the long and short of it is...I hope I still lose a little weight on Wednesday but will be upset if I have gained.
My walk/run today went well and I have started the weekly challenge of completing 500 push ups (50 down).
I feel well and happy, sleeping a little restless. but that often happens to me with change.
I enjoy looking ahead 4 weeks to see where I am at. That keeps me going.
xxx
Monday, 6 May 2013
I have returned
Welcome me, for I have returned.
One more round of 12wbt is left in me and I have a plan....a very big plan.
I want this done...no more, "I nearly got where I wanted to be"...no no no! I felt so close and I have almost let is slip away...but I will not go down without a fight.
I have continued to run, continued to train...all the while my diet has slowly taken a backward step until one morning I could no longer say...Oh that weight is just from a big weekend, those 2 kg will be gone by Wednesday.
One morning I awoke to find 8kg of the 30kg I have lost hanging back on me like a dirty reminder of the past.
I will not let that happen, I will not go back.
Past rounds taught me about pride and personal achievement. Wanting peoples praise and offer encouragement is nice, but not necessary. To keep moving forward knowing you are doing your best to achieve something great.
I still agree with that but this round I will not be the quiet achiever, I will not search for praise, I will not demand or expect praise but I will damn well get it!
This round, for me, is all about power, strength, fight and desire!
Sometimes I sook, sometimes a cry, sometimes I wonder why, but this time I will fight for my goals.
I will not stop until I know in my heart, that I have achieved.
That is my promise to myself.
One more round of 12wbt is left in me and I have a plan....a very big plan.
I want this done...no more, "I nearly got where I wanted to be"...no no no! I felt so close and I have almost let is slip away...but I will not go down without a fight.
I have continued to run, continued to train...all the while my diet has slowly taken a backward step until one morning I could no longer say...Oh that weight is just from a big weekend, those 2 kg will be gone by Wednesday.
One morning I awoke to find 8kg of the 30kg I have lost hanging back on me like a dirty reminder of the past.
I will not let that happen, I will not go back.
Past rounds taught me about pride and personal achievement. Wanting peoples praise and offer encouragement is nice, but not necessary. To keep moving forward knowing you are doing your best to achieve something great.
I still agree with that but this round I will not be the quiet achiever, I will not search for praise, I will not demand or expect praise but I will damn well get it!
This round, for me, is all about power, strength, fight and desire!
Sometimes I sook, sometimes a cry, sometimes I wonder why, but this time I will fight for my goals.
I will not stop until I know in my heart, that I have achieved.
That is my promise to myself.
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