Man I am not happy today.
My training this week has sucked big time. I've missed 2 days straight. I drank wine on Sunday night. I am pre menstrual. And I stupidly checked the scales this morning. Almost like a intentional sabotage to create or justify a bad mood. I have lost only .5kg. That is not acceptable. Tomorrow's weigh in will be horrible. I am going to have to work hard to keep my focus.
My hunger has subsided somewhat, but has been replaced by some ridiculous desire for sweet foods. It is a constant battle. I wont give in but I am tired and cant be bothered with the struggle.
I go to bed early, hiding from past habits. As a result, I don't feel like I have seen my husband in days. I know I need to push though this stage. I know this.
Monday, 27 May 2013
Tuesday, 21 May 2013
week 2 weigh in
Well...Here's to organisation in regard to red flags.
1.3kg down this week and I was expecting the worst due to my night of pre planned partying.
Hangover Sunday was actually more difficult as I craved some salty goodness usually connected to a hangover, but resisted.
I am so so happy with this result. Totally unexpected. In saying that, I trained hard and ate perfectly all week.
It feels good to be heading in the right direction.
I love the food. I love to cook. Many of my tweets are food shots. Annoying to some, I know, but I love the colours in the 12wbt menu. so fresh and so clean.
Now to make sure my happiness relating to my weigh in does not hamper me from pushing hard this week. I must not ease off the pedal but keep pushing forward.
Wishing my friends all the best during these tough times.
It was wonderful to see everyone happy. xxx
1.3kg down this week and I was expecting the worst due to my night of pre planned partying.
Hangover Sunday was actually more difficult as I craved some salty goodness usually connected to a hangover, but resisted.
I am so so happy with this result. Totally unexpected. In saying that, I trained hard and ate perfectly all week.
It feels good to be heading in the right direction.
I love the food. I love to cook. Many of my tweets are food shots. Annoying to some, I know, but I love the colours in the 12wbt menu. so fresh and so clean.
Now to make sure my happiness relating to my weigh in does not hamper me from pushing hard this week. I must not ease off the pedal but keep pushing forward.
Wishing my friends all the best during these tough times.
It was wonderful to see everyone happy. xxx
Sunday, 19 May 2013
Things to remember in life (Dalai Lama).
Follow the 3 R's........Respect for self...Respect for others...Responsibility for all your actions.
Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.
Open your arms to change but don't let go of your values.
Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risks.
When you lose, don't lose the lesson.
Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon
Be kind to the Earth.
Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.
Open your arms to change but don't let go of your values.
Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risks.
When you lose, don't lose the lesson.
Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon
Be kind to the Earth.
Week One Complete
Well, Week 1 is complete and all is going reasonably well.
I am very nervous though, regarding week 2 weigh in.
I had a red flag night on Saturday and was well prepared. It was an event that was close to my heart (illness of a friend) and was a non negotiable re drinking. By my choice, of course. I am aware of the outcome of drinking and kept it reasonable.
I ate at 4pm b4 I left home to ensure no party nibble crossed my lips, and they did not, eventhough I helped with the cooking.
So, the long and short of it is...I hope I still lose a little weight on Wednesday but will be upset if I have gained.
My walk/run today went well and I have started the weekly challenge of completing 500 push ups (50 down).
I feel well and happy, sleeping a little restless. but that often happens to me with change.
I enjoy looking ahead 4 weeks to see where I am at. That keeps me going.
xxx
I am very nervous though, regarding week 2 weigh in.
I had a red flag night on Saturday and was well prepared. It was an event that was close to my heart (illness of a friend) and was a non negotiable re drinking. By my choice, of course. I am aware of the outcome of drinking and kept it reasonable.
I ate at 4pm b4 I left home to ensure no party nibble crossed my lips, and they did not, eventhough I helped with the cooking.
So, the long and short of it is...I hope I still lose a little weight on Wednesday but will be upset if I have gained.
My walk/run today went well and I have started the weekly challenge of completing 500 push ups (50 down).
I feel well and happy, sleeping a little restless. but that often happens to me with change.
I enjoy looking ahead 4 weeks to see where I am at. That keeps me going.
xxx
Monday, 6 May 2013
I have returned
Welcome me, for I have returned.
One more round of 12wbt is left in me and I have a plan....a very big plan.
I want this done...no more, "I nearly got where I wanted to be"...no no no! I felt so close and I have almost let is slip away...but I will not go down without a fight.
I have continued to run, continued to train...all the while my diet has slowly taken a backward step until one morning I could no longer say...Oh that weight is just from a big weekend, those 2 kg will be gone by Wednesday.
One morning I awoke to find 8kg of the 30kg I have lost hanging back on me like a dirty reminder of the past.
I will not let that happen, I will not go back.
Past rounds taught me about pride and personal achievement. Wanting peoples praise and offer encouragement is nice, but not necessary. To keep moving forward knowing you are doing your best to achieve something great.
I still agree with that but this round I will not be the quiet achiever, I will not search for praise, I will not demand or expect praise but I will damn well get it!
This round, for me, is all about power, strength, fight and desire!
Sometimes I sook, sometimes a cry, sometimes I wonder why, but this time I will fight for my goals.
I will not stop until I know in my heart, that I have achieved.
That is my promise to myself.
One more round of 12wbt is left in me and I have a plan....a very big plan.
I want this done...no more, "I nearly got where I wanted to be"...no no no! I felt so close and I have almost let is slip away...but I will not go down without a fight.
I have continued to run, continued to train...all the while my diet has slowly taken a backward step until one morning I could no longer say...Oh that weight is just from a big weekend, those 2 kg will be gone by Wednesday.
One morning I awoke to find 8kg of the 30kg I have lost hanging back on me like a dirty reminder of the past.
I will not let that happen, I will not go back.
Past rounds taught me about pride and personal achievement. Wanting peoples praise and offer encouragement is nice, but not necessary. To keep moving forward knowing you are doing your best to achieve something great.
I still agree with that but this round I will not be the quiet achiever, I will not search for praise, I will not demand or expect praise but I will damn well get it!
This round, for me, is all about power, strength, fight and desire!
Sometimes I sook, sometimes a cry, sometimes I wonder why, but this time I will fight for my goals.
I will not stop until I know in my heart, that I have achieved.
That is my promise to myself.
Thursday, 12 January 2012
I'm tuning 40 in February!
After reading a fellow friends post today, I was left wondering what 2011 and 2012 have meant and have in store for me.
(any bad typing due to iPhone).
Firstly 2012 I turn 40. Not sure I'm over the moon about this but I do have focus, direction, determination, strength, pride and happiness. So that's a great way to start.
I feel like I am exactly where I am meant to be and await the challenges of 2012 eagerly.
My 2012 is about running, clean eating and loving everything for what it is and as it is.
12wbt had given me the tools to lose 26kg and to become fit.
Jells park has given me the tools to understand and appreciate the joys of a group, a team, something I've always been scared of. Funnily, this was my biggest challenge and thank goodness I stayed strong!
I am thankful to coachrell and all the girls. Special thanks to Bec and em coz I love yu and to dear Maz!
Thanks Lisa for my 1st pump class...squats are nasty!!!
Thanks Lisa. Rell cel em Bec Jess jacki and Maz for the fun runs. Rells runners are unbelievable!
Now for my holiday list... I have run every 2nd day (8 runs), joined a beach yoga session, wore bathers and swam in the surf, helped with the Nippers program and played golf with my husband and dad.
Now if I have done this in 3 weeks, imagine what 2i can do fir the rest of 2012?!
I smile at the thought:)
(any bad typing due to iPhone).
Firstly 2012 I turn 40. Not sure I'm over the moon about this but I do have focus, direction, determination, strength, pride and happiness. So that's a great way to start.
I feel like I am exactly where I am meant to be and await the challenges of 2012 eagerly.
My 2012 is about running, clean eating and loving everything for what it is and as it is.
12wbt had given me the tools to lose 26kg and to become fit.
Jells park has given me the tools to understand and appreciate the joys of a group, a team, something I've always been scared of. Funnily, this was my biggest challenge and thank goodness I stayed strong!
I am thankful to coachrell and all the girls. Special thanks to Bec and em coz I love yu and to dear Maz!
Thanks Lisa for my 1st pump class...squats are nasty!!!
Thanks Lisa. Rell cel em Bec Jess jacki and Maz for the fun runs. Rells runners are unbelievable!
Now for my holiday list... I have run every 2nd day (8 runs), joined a beach yoga session, wore bathers and swam in the surf, helped with the Nippers program and played golf with my husband and dad.
Now if I have done this in 3 weeks, imagine what 2i can do fir the rest of 2012?!
I smile at the thought:)
Wednesday, 2 November 2011
Week 8 is it that clear?
I think everything is going ok...just ok because I have not been as rigid with my set menu and much more flexible at mealtimes and training times. I am not as hell bent on doing it all right now! Perfectly! Without exeption or it will all fall apart.
I am assuming this is a good sign that I have more control and better understanding of my bodies needs. I do fear sometimes that it's possibly a step backward, but I don't think so.
I am really focused now on losing weight to feel fitter. Running more, training less but harder and enjoying the benefits of feeling happy and healthy without guilt.
I just didn't realize how big a journey this 12wbt would be/become.
This rnd I have lost 6.3kg and 29cm. I will not reach my goal of 14kg, but perhaps 9 or 10kg, and surprisingly that is fine by me.
And just a quick note to the 12wbt twitterers out there....you inspire me, give me strength, show me how to be gracious, to understand others needs and current paths and to realize how different we can all be but trying to attain similar goals. Thank you. xxxooo
I am assuming this is a good sign that I have more control and better understanding of my bodies needs. I do fear sometimes that it's possibly a step backward, but I don't think so.
I am really focused now on losing weight to feel fitter. Running more, training less but harder and enjoying the benefits of feeling happy and healthy without guilt.
I just didn't realize how big a journey this 12wbt would be/become.
This rnd I have lost 6.3kg and 29cm. I will not reach my goal of 14kg, but perhaps 9 or 10kg, and surprisingly that is fine by me.
And just a quick note to the 12wbt twitterers out there....you inspire me, give me strength, show me how to be gracious, to understand others needs and current paths and to realize how different we can all be but trying to attain similar goals. Thank you. xxxooo
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