ok. not what i expected or wanted. 700gm loss.
this last week felt like a big turn around for me. I felt like i understood where i was at and how to reach my goals. i felt stronger and braver and you could not burst my bubble. till this morning.
i wanted a bigger number like 1.1kg or even a little higher and it didnt come. I growled, i cried and spat the big dummy.
But here it is Georgia, I expected more because my ideas and thoughts of myself have changed so dramatically in 1 week. Those thoughts and feelings will make me stronger for the future, they are not indicitive of what my result should have been or was today!
I must remember to keep the positives in, be proud of my achievements and the rest will follow. I dont want to crumble at the drop of a hat. That is not me, I am far stronger and i am moving forward.
My promise to @12wbt any myself is;
MY GOAL AND COMMITMENT TO MYSELF AND TO YOU IS TO LOSE 16KG IN ROUND 2 12WBT.
I AM STRONG, FOCUSED AND WORTHY, AND I WILL SUCCEED.
I WILL COMMIT TO THE TRAINING, THE MENU AND MY NEW LIFESTYLE, AND I AM COMMITED TO DO THE WORK IT TAKES TO GET THERE.
AND IT WILL START TODAY!
I can say with all honestly, I have kept up to that promise. I may not quite reach 16kg but i have bloody tried hard and i am a better person as a result.
Tuesday, 26 July 2011
Monday, 25 July 2011
week 10 Jells park 12wbt workout
week 10 weigh in tomorrow and I am hoping for a good result. 1.1kg would make me happy. I am currently down to 88.9kg last wednesday.
Last weekend I bit the bullet...And that is I went to a 12wbt training session with frichot fitness and some twitter buddies to Jells park. I was so nervous. i have always refused to do any outside training for fear of looking like a fool.
i got in the car, drove down the road and turned home. I sat at home for a few minutes and just told myself..no.. this is your chance, an opportunity, dont regret not going. i got back in the car and just made it to jells on time. And i am happy to say, i loved it...i felt like i had acheived something great, the monkey was off my back. Everyone was so so lovely and i loved the feeling of making an effort. it all became so much more real for me.
this journey has truely left me feeling so much more in control of my life and my choices (even if my house is a little messier), i love the challenge i am now faced with rather than dreading it. i am proud of myself, and im not sure i have ever said that.
round 3 will be the final step to making sure i can keep the focus in moving forward, but i am loving this.
Last weekend I bit the bullet...And that is I went to a 12wbt training session with frichot fitness and some twitter buddies to Jells park. I was so nervous. i have always refused to do any outside training for fear of looking like a fool.
i got in the car, drove down the road and turned home. I sat at home for a few minutes and just told myself..no.. this is your chance, an opportunity, dont regret not going. i got back in the car and just made it to jells on time. And i am happy to say, i loved it...i felt like i had acheived something great, the monkey was off my back. Everyone was so so lovely and i loved the feeling of making an effort. it all became so much more real for me.
this journey has truely left me feeling so much more in control of my life and my choices (even if my house is a little messier), i love the challenge i am now faced with rather than dreading it. i am proud of myself, and im not sure i have ever said that.
round 3 will be the final step to making sure i can keep the focus in moving forward, but i am loving this.
Wednesday, 13 July 2011
week 8 and loving this!
Ok 36cm gone! 10.3kg gone. I can run, i feel fit and I am happy! I have gone from 100.1kg to 89.8kg. I have not been in the 80's for 10 years!
I have had many ups and downs so far and have ridden the waves of life well, infact far better than I could have imagined.
I have been amazed at how much, a few weeks ago, I was desperate for people to notice my changes and comment on how great things were going for me. That praise did not come! And for a week, it broke me!
It was the strangest feeling, I wanted to give up, I hated people for not noticing and i hated myself. i still cant quite understand my emotions and how lack of praise almost sent me in a spin. i can now see, that is the EXACT point that I have slipped up in the past. No one cares and nothing changes, so why continue?
But this time it struck me. I hung in there, and it was that very week that I began to feel emotionally and physically different. the lightbulb moment! Praise is nice, but it does not change my goal, does not alter what I need to do or how I need to continue. Other than make me feel a bit nice and happy with myself..BUT,I can give myself all of that now. I have given myself chioces. I have given myself health. I have given myself encouragement, strength, perseverence and I have given myself love. I am crying re reading this as I am so suprised by where I have found myself and am eternally grateful to Michelle Bridges, 12wbt, twitter friends, husband, children and MYSELF. xxoo
I have had many ups and downs so far and have ridden the waves of life well, infact far better than I could have imagined.
I have been amazed at how much, a few weeks ago, I was desperate for people to notice my changes and comment on how great things were going for me. That praise did not come! And for a week, it broke me!
It was the strangest feeling, I wanted to give up, I hated people for not noticing and i hated myself. i still cant quite understand my emotions and how lack of praise almost sent me in a spin. i can now see, that is the EXACT point that I have slipped up in the past. No one cares and nothing changes, so why continue?
But this time it struck me. I hung in there, and it was that very week that I began to feel emotionally and physically different. the lightbulb moment! Praise is nice, but it does not change my goal, does not alter what I need to do or how I need to continue. Other than make me feel a bit nice and happy with myself..BUT,I can give myself all of that now. I have given myself chioces. I have given myself health. I have given myself encouragement, strength, perseverence and I have given myself love. I am crying re reading this as I am so suprised by where I have found myself and am eternally grateful to Michelle Bridges, 12wbt, twitter friends, husband, children and MYSELF. xxoo
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